Hi Everyone!
I just read the article by Gretchen Ward on the Reflections site and was totally blown away by the insights that she has provided!
Read it---and read it again and again, if you are working on your recovery from the Assembly.
There are two very important things that I took away from reading her article:
1.) We were damaged by our involvement in the Assembly. We cannot ignore this point! True, some were hurt worse than others, but none left unscathed. We must understand how the Christian faith was twisted and used to affect this damage by GG and company.
A dismissal of the fact that GG developed an abusive system, or that it's toxic influences actually could hurt one's soul, can only lead to great loss.
"Like what Mark?" Take Gretchen's example of what became of Mark Sjorgren: He started out as a kind Christian man and was turned into a monster.
Questions: When one is transformed into a monster, via "God's instruction", and progressively allows this process of a hardened conscience over decades, how do you think the process can be reversed and recovered from?
Can it be done without understanding how I allowed this to happen in my life? If I just deny it and "get on with my life" will all be well?
Take the victim of the monster under consideration as well: Constantly told you are "nothing" and that God's love (and the group's as well) is dependant on your absolute loyalty to the leadership.
The way the above worked was well described by Gretchen. These who were heaped with guilt, shame, and a constant pressure of trying to please a perfectionist God were being transformed as well into something.
Gretchen's description of "The Selfer's Prayer" as a kind of mantra to be used to purge the inner life of the evil of self is the kind of tool used by evil religion to destroy the conscience and break down resistance to being controlled. It can, in it's extreme form, lead to Jonestown styled kool-aid parties.
This "transforming process" worked by convincing the individual that they were personally defective, and then went on to set up a hopeless expectation of "putting to death their self life." Suicide, depression, etc. are the results of such "teaching." Liberated joyfull souls full of peace are not the result of these kind of manipulations.
These same victims were told to "submit" to these leaders even though the abused knew the leaders lied, were cruel, sought mastery over them, were full of pride, etc. Like David with Saul (Gene Edwards) we were suppose to submit to these evil people.
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.) Because we were deeply affected by the Assembly we need to be involved in a recovery process that will reverse the damage. I already alluded to that above. This recovery is not just a psychological one, but a spiritual one as well. There is great hope here that these wounds can find healing and make in us the kind of Christians that can truly be a blessing to others.
Thank you so much Gretchen for telling your story and I know that it will be a great help to many.
God Bless, Mark C.