Scott, (and Kimberley, based on your endorsement,)
It seems as if you are extending the political premise that no man can be trusted with absolute authority to include God as well.
Isaiah 45:7,9
I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things. ... Woe unto him that striveth with his Maker! Let the potsherd strive with the potsherds of the earth. Shall the clay say to him that fashioneth it, What makest thou? or thy work, He hath no hands?
Job 23:3,10,13-15
Oh that I knew where I might find him! that I might come even to his seat! ... But he knoweth the way that I take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold. ... But he is in one mind, and who can turn him? and what his soul desireth, even that he doeth. For he performeth the thing that is appointed for me: and many such things are with him. Therefore am I troubled at his presence: when I consider, I am afraid of him.
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I should have had more faith. It could well be that my failure at this point was the reason that the Lord has put me through such hard times since then.
In retrospect, I think that perhaps what the Lord had wanted me to do then was to quit my job and move to San Luis Obispo. It was soon after this that I made the mistake of taking upon myself a project at work which the Lord didn't want me to do. I was clueless about company politics. Enemies worked behind the scenes to cause the project to fail.
Since losing my job there, there have been a few times that I might have been more thoughtful and made a better choice in a decision of life. On those occasions there seemed to be evidence of subtle manipulation so that I would make the wrong choice.
... this person claimed to have protection from some sort of organization ...
After the telling of the forbidden thing, it might have been that my dessert at a Christmas dinner was poisoned. I was in bed with chemically induced hepatitis for three weeks. At a later date the small company I worked for moved to another building. The carpet in the area where I was to work was thoroughly saturated with some kind of solvent, perhaps benzene. This caused some kind of severe allergic reaction so that I had to quit, and my health was bad for a long time afterwards.
My faith was shaken by these things. It seemed as if God was defending the lies and falsehoods of this evil organization. I decided that if God is acting contrary to what the Bible teaches, then it would seem that the Bible is not true. It was not possible to reject the existence of God, since the scientific evidence in favor of the existence of God cannot be denied. I just couldn't conceive his nature and identity. From the philosophical point of view he has to be good, because otherwise there would be no reason for him to exist. I ended up arguing with him while I was hiking in the arroyo behind my mom's mobile home, and he caused me to fall and break my hip.
After the hospital stay I lived at my mom's place for several months. I started watching a some spanish language TV to improve my understanding of the language. The Lord reached my heart with a crazy story in a show produced by Catholics called "Carita de Angel". In the story a man disowned his daughter because he didn't approve of the man she married. Because of that he never met his granddaughter. Subsequently his daughter died and the man he didn't approve of remarried. The Spanish word for this is "rencor". Besides its obvious meaning, it can also mean a grudge. The idea that a man wouldn't want to meet his granddaughter because of a grudge is rather far fetched, but then, so is having a grudge against God who loves me. Looking up the word again, I just noticed that a very similar word "renco" means lame in the hip.
So I've learned the hard way that God can do anything he wants. I don't know if he will let me walk again, but early last year he promised that he would do good for me. He also indicated the need for my manners to improve, and my memory of people. Thinking about remembering people was what led to my discovery of the GA web site and this BB.